I honestly don’t appreciate anything. I’m always I un-satisfied or bitching about something. I am jealous of everyone and what they have. I get mad so easily. I want a job so bad and I want all these things but yet I skip church on Sunday and can’t even thank god for what I have. I am so dumb. Why can’t I wake up and see what I’m freaking doing, I curse and yell and call everyone names. I used to be so sweet and loving what happened to me? I wish I could change myself immediately. I seriously hate the way I am